How privileged we are as women to be able to have friends that we can talk to about
day to day things. Our relationships, work, the kids or the lack of all of those things and just be free right?! No. Not always. A lot of relationships with our friends are built on ulterior motives. Not necessarily a bad thing but don't you have different friends for different things?
The friend who has kids the same age as yours. You met doing the school run and just hit it off. The kids get along...most of the time. You pick up each other's kids when either of you are running late. You share shopping and cooking tips etc. Some great friendships are formed at the school gate.
Then there's the old friends from school who you meet up with every few months or sometimes the months run into years but it's ok because your really good friends so you slip back into conversation easily (mainly gossiping about whose shagging who or whose left who) sound familiar?...lol.
It's ok we all do it.
Then there's your ride or die. The bestie that you have known forever and share every thing with, clothes, make up tips, food (she must smell the food because she always shows up just as you're dishing it out.. But it's ok she's your bestie) and of course secrets!!
Yes secrets...let's talk about those.
How much do you really tell your best friend? I mean we all need someone to tell everything to don't we?
So of course you have told her about your traumatic life experiences. The sexual abuse you suffered as a child or the domestic violence you endured or are still enduring in your current relationship. You have told her what happened in as much detail as you could without bringing it all up for yourself, but did you tell her how that has impacted your life. How it makes you FEEL about yourself.
You see sometimes we find it really hard to open up to even our very best friends about our experiences because we don't want to be judged. We don't want them to look at us or see us
any differently and most of all we don't want them to tell anyone else.
Let's say you have told your best friend and naturally she is really sad for you and offers to support you and be there for you whenever you need to talk about it again. That's good but now what? You feel a little bit lighter in yourself but theres work to be done because you still
don't feel quite good enough. You are still left with feelings of shame and lack of self worth even though you know deep inside of you that you are a good person who is worthy of a happier life but you feel conflicted by what you want to believe and what you actually believe.
I have experienced sexual, physical, and verbal abuse as a child and then through lack of self worth and not knowing my true value as a beautiful young woman, I ended up in abusive relationships as an adult.
It's not been an easy road but oh so worth it.
To feel free from my past, to be able to look at myself in the mirror without cringing, to be able to pursue my dreams knowing that I am worthy of a happy life is the greatest feeling. To be in a happy and stable marriage, and be loved by my children and grandchildren is more than I would ever had thought possible at my lowest point.
It has taken me years to get here but since you are already here on my page let's keep talking.
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